breaking up

when i was drinking
when i was with you
living it up when the rent was due
with nothing and no one to live up to

you and me dying on the vine
holding hands and drinking wine
now i'm not the same girl i left behind with you

twelve bars behind us
and twelve bars to go
bottles of beer lined up in a row
one for each hour you didn't show

you and me dying everyday
getting high just to pass away
but that's not the reason i couldn't stay with you

now i am sober
now i'm alone
three years have gone by since you have gone
letting you go
letting me go on

but i'll raise a glass now to you and me
to to lift me higher so i can see
which of these blessings are killing me

When I was drinking - Hem

sometimes love songs don't say anything about love

Brosandi
Hendumst í hringi
Höldumst í hendur
Allur heimurinn óskýr
nema þú stendur

Rennblautur
Allur rennvotur
Engin gúmmístígvél
Hlaupandi í okkur ?
Vill springa út úr skel

Vindur í
og útilykt ? af hárinu þínu
Ég lamdi eins fast og ég get
með nefinu mínu
Hoppa í poll
Í engum stígvélum
Allur rennvotur (rennblautur)
Í engum stígvélum

Og ég fæ blóðnasir
En ég stend alltaf upp

Og ég fæ blóðnasir
En ég stend alltaf upp

Hoppípolla - Sigur Rós

because it turned out oh-so-prettily

You have stolen my heart
Love like suicide
Like the sunshine
Let's make it out, baby
I could possibly be fading
and I keep thinking tomorrow is coming today
I want you to come along for the ride
crawl like ivy up my spine
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
I walk in the air between the rain through myself and back again
trading stories with the leaves
I still find pieces of your presence here
and oh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing
One more notch I scratch, to keep me thinking of you
the crumbling difference between wrong and right
So high, the sky I scrape
I'm still here but you don't trust at all
Can't you see my walls are crumbling?
These feelings won't go away
Words will go from poetry to prose
What is love, but whatever my heart needs around?
And it's all right where it belongs
Suppose I said you're my saving grace?
Yes, be what you'll be
You're the other side of the world to me
Without you here there is less to say
because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love
and it's not a love it's not a love it's not a love song.
That's not the only lie I told you - and you'll never notice
So I am endlessly waiting
I'm blind and waiting for you
I only make jokes to distract myself
From the truth, from the truth
There you are standing right in front of me
Yes and No are the answers written in my true love's eyes
and every word is nonsense but i understand and
I can tell you're in denial; get over it.

Too many.

songs in the head

Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime


Beck - Everybody's gotta learn sometime

too much information

I was staring at the sky
Just looking for a star
To pray on or wish on or something like that
I was having a sweet fix
Of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment
That my chances were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near
So did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird but it was just a paper bag

Hunger hurts and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I've gotta fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, starving works when it costs too much to love

And I went crazy again today
Looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay
Wouldn't put his lips to mine
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said honey I don't feel so good
Don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void
He said it's all in your head
I said so's everything but he didn't get it
I thought he was a man but he was just a little boy

Hunger hurts...
Hunger hurts...
Hunger hurts...

Fiona Apple - Paper Bag

almost twentythree

Please beware of them that stare
They'll only smile to see you while
your time away
And once you've seen what they have been
To win the earth just won't seem worth
your night or your day
Who'll hear what I say?

Look around you find the ground
is not so far from where you are
The dumb to the wise
For down below they never grow
They're always tired
and charms are hired from out of their eyes
Never a surprise

Take your time and you'll be fine
And say a prayer for people there
who live on the floor
And if you see what's meant to be
Don't name the day or try to say
"It happened before."

Don't be shy you learn to fly
and see the sun when day is done
If only you see
just what you are beneath a star
that came to stay one rainy day
in autumn for free
Yes, be what you'll be.

Please beware of them that stare
They'll only smile to see you while
your time away
And once you've seen what they have been
To win the earth just won't seem worth
your night or your day
Who'll hear what I say?

Open up the broken cup
Let goodly sin and sunshine in
Yes, that's today.
And open wide the hymns you hide
You find renown while people frown
at things that you say
But say what you'll say
about the farmers and the fun
and the things behind the sun
and the people round your head
who say "Everything's been said."
and the movement in your brain
sends you out into the rain

Nick Drake - Things Behind The Sun

tummy achin'

You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There's no words to describe it
In French or in English

Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you

These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
They've been knockin' me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away

Citizen Cope - Sideways

at any other time

I love you more than I should
So much more than is good for me
More than is good

Oh the timing is cruel
Oh I need and don't want to need
More than I should

I am falling, say my name
And I'll lie in the sound
What is love, but whatever
My heart needs around

Oh my sheet is so thin
So I say I can't sleep because
It's so very cold

Oh but I know what I need
And if you were just near to me
Would you go...

I am falling, say my name
And I'll lie in the sound
What is love, but whatever
My heart needs around

And it needs you too much now

Trespassers William - Lie in the Sound

ports for tempests

I hold you in my hands
A little animal
And only some dumb idiot
Would let you go

I hold you in cupped hands
And shield you from a storm
Where only some dumb idiot
Would let you go

But if I'm one thing
Then that's the one thing
I should know
Can anybody find their home
Out of everyone
Can anybody find their home
Lost in the sun
Can anybody find their home

Keane - Sunshine

fits just right

Bye bye baby,
don't be long.
I'll worry about you while you're gone

I'll think of you in my dreams.
You'll never know just what you mean to me.

Ivy - Worry about you

and how pathetic can i get?

When the day is long and the night
the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough
of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go
'cause everybody cries
and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone
(hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go
(hold on)
When you think you've had too much
of this life, well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts
Don't throw your hand
Oh, no
Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone
no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life
the days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much
of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody cries
And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes
So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on,
hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts
You are not alone


REM - Everybody hurts

and i won't say for whom this is meant

Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
There are times
I lose my worried mind

Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
Words will go
From poetry to prose

And I
In time
Will come around
I always do
For you

Suppose I said
You're my saving grace?

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

John Mayer - Not Myself

finishing school

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

Can you help me
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore

And the fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world
The other side of the world
You're the other side of the world to me

KT Tunstall - Other Side Of The World

crawling membranes

Throw your dollar bills and leave your thrills all here with me
And speak but don't pretend I won't defend you any more you see
It aches in every bone, I'll die alone, but not for you
My eyes don't need to see that ugly thing, I know it's me you fear
If you want me hold me back

I don't need a friend, I need to mend so far away
So come sit by the fire and play a while, but you can't stay too long
It aches in every bone, I'll die alone, but not for pleasure
I see my heart explode, it's been eroded by the weather here
If you want me hold me back

Hold your eyes closed, take me in
Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail
And so we go back to the remedy
Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie
And tell yourself, you'll be the death of me

Seether - Remedy

stopped the writing

Ecstasy is all you need
Living in the big machine
Now
Oh, you're so vain
Now your world is way too fast
Nothing's real and nothing lasts
And I'm aware
I'm in love but you don't care

Turn your anger into lust
I'm still here but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting

Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest so I'll survive
God it's good to be alive

And I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

Still in love with all your sins
Where you stop and I'll begin
And I'll
I'll be waiting
Living like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel

Now this angry little girl
Drowning in this petty world
And I'm
Who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful
You're all or not
I don't need what you ain't got

And I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm still here and waiting for you
And I can't believe it's coming true
I'm blind and waiting for you

Goo Goo Dolls - Big Machine

wide-eyed waiting

See the animal in his cage that you built,
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye,
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built,
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart,
And it's all...right where it belongs

What if all the world's inside of your head?
Just creations of your own
Your devils and your gods all the living and the dead
And you're really all alone
You can live in this illusion,
You can choose to believe.
You keep looking but you can't find the woods,
While you're hiding in the trees

What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself...find yourself afraid to see?

Nine Inch Nails - Right Where It Belongs

perhaps i should shut the winamp down?

Fancy a big house
Some kids and a horse
I can not quite, but nearly
Guarantee, a divorce
I think that I love you
I think that I do
So go on, mister, make Miss me Mrs you.

Fancy a fast car
A bag full of loot
I can nearly guarantee
You'll end up with the boot

I love you, I love you, I love you; I do
I only make jokes to distract myself
From the truth, from the truth.

Zero 7 - Distractions

avoiding people

i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything

what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

i wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
i cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
i am still right here

if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way

Nine Inch Nails - Hurt

morning with sections

my friend assures me its all or nothing
i am not worried - i am not overly concerned
my friend implores me, for one time only,
make an exception - i am not worried

wrap her up in a package of lies
send her off to a coconut island
i am not worried - i am not overly concerned
with the status of my emotions
oh, she says, we're changing
but we're always changing

it does not bother me to say this isn't love
because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love
and i guess i'm going to have to live with that
but, i'm sure there's something in a shade of grey
or something in between
and i can always change my name if that's what you mean

my friend assures me its all or nothing but i am
not really worried - i am not overly concerned
you try to tell yourself the things you try, tell yourself to make
yourself forget
to make your self forget
i am not worried
if its love she said, then we're gonna have to think about the
consequences
she can't stop shaking and i can't stop touching her and
this time
when kindness falls like rain
it washes her away and anna begins to change her mind
these seconds when i'm shaking leave me shuddering
for days she says
and i'm not ready for this sort of thing

but i'm not gonna break
and i'm not going to worry about it anymore
i'm not gonna bend. and i’m not gonna break and
i'm not gonna worry about it anymore
it seems like i should stay as long as this is love
but its not all that easy so maybe i should just
snap her up in a butterfly net-
pin her down on a photograph album
i am not worried
because i've done this sort of thing before
but then i start to think about the consequences
and i don’t get no sleep in a quiet room and
this time
when kindness falls like rain
it washes me away and anna begins change my mind
and every time she sneezes i believe its love
and oh lord, i’m not ready for this sort of thing

she's talking in her sleep - it's keeping me awake
and anna begins to toss and turn
and every word is nonsense but i understand and
oh lord. i'm not ready for this sort of thing
her kindness bangs a gong
it's moving me along and anna begins to fade away
it's chasing me away
and she disappears, and oh lord
i’m not ready for this sort of thing

Counting Crows - Anna begins

today i let others speak for me part two

Every day
Keep making the same mistakes
Once again
I find myself in the same old place
And I'm wandering
Wondering
Where to turn
There's a dead end
Straight ahead
Won't you take me home?

And you said
There's nothing you wouldn't do
And I answered
There's nothing in this world I need you to do
Just hold me
In your arms
I feel so cold
There are dark clouds
Gathering
Won't you take me home?

Oh, won't you take me home?

Got me wandering
Wondering
Where to turn
There are dark clouds
Gathering
Won't you take me home?

Oh please, won't you take me home?
Oh, won't you take me home?

Aqualung - Take me home